Leon’s Blog

Deepavali pass, Hari Raya too, including Christmas and New Year 2007 and now Chinese New Year period had begun. I really had much fun during the first two days of CNY, wearing new cloths visiting every relatives. It is very sad that my ‘Pak Gong (grandfather’s elder brother) and my ‘Um Sok Po’ (grandfather’s fifth sister) is not in this world. Well I certainly pray for them to have a great CNY celebration in the heaven.

        Receiving warning from my parents that I won’t have a great year in this year, yet I didn’t listen to them. I gamble and gamble and gamble, losing huge amount of money. Yet is fantastic experience, the most memorable game ever excluded me because I scared to gamble at away places. 11 players (all my relatives) gambling smoothly until the last game, my uncle betting for the first time with RM10 with extra one player which unbalance the whole game, almost everyone putting the maximum bet which is RM5. My outer auntie was sweating and scared that she will lose everything, soon my another uncle yelling "if banker get a black jack, everyone goes KO." Soon the cards are all deliver out to every players in the tables, when the banker shows an Ace, everyone on the table stunned and scared to death already staring at my outer auntie cards. A lot of them began to sweat, soon my auntie slowly sliding off the Ace, man look at  everyone impression, all pale looking face, and jackpot man, my aunt got a king. And it makes black jack and everyone got to pay double. Everyone starting blaming my uncle for coming the wrong time, well not his fault too, he lost RM20 in the first match and the last match lol.. My auntie was the happiest winning more than RM70 that match itself.

        On that day itself, we watch Apacalyto and Grudge 2 (man why CNY must watch ghost movie =.=). Around 11p.m. (yea is at night), we start the grudge 2, everyone armed with a pillow except my second youngest cousin hiding behind me. That movie was freaking scary till the adults too closing their eyes, and great in the middle of the show, my uncle just exploded anthrax everywhere. Damn. Once the movie finish everyone was shivering that includes me too. I was having a really bad nightmare on that day itself took 2 hours to calm down to sleep. One of my cousin appear not to sleep at all.

          The next morning my other eldest uncle’s family got to move to Tapah, well thats the tradition of CNY. First day of CNY will be celebrating with father’s side and second day of CNY will be celebrating with mother’s side. I began to feel bored without my closest cousin around. Yet, it became worst when someone was not usual to herself for few days. I suspecting it and keeping it until today I couldn’t stand it and ending up asking her whats happening. I receive a bad bad news that makes me so sad, well I don’t think I want to explain the whole thing here, anyway I got home to KL and I felt more sad. It started to rain and I’ve decided to go out to release sadness, I went to the hill walking under the rain screaming against the air and I almost slip down to the hill. That was a scary experience, I thought I couldn’t control it, would end up heavily injured but I was lucky to survive that. sigh.. I’ve been always thinking most of my close fren said that I’m nice and potential, will get a nice mate easily. But twice, is twice already that i fall to those sadness. sigh.. I really dun want this to happen anymore.. Who can help me?? guess no one can understand my feelings sigh…