I’m being dumb
My second blog of the day, today I, Eu Juin and my mui mui were discussing about attitude of people. There were mainly 2 people that we discussing and I’ll divide them into person A and person B. A was my best friend few years ago, but A been changing lately especially after getting a post in perfects board. A changing to a person that I don’t usually know and A is being too harsh on people. At first we were thinking that A treating love as game but actually after we do some analyzing, he is actually wanting to find a girl that would hurt that girl who rejected him. Is such disgrace when having a friend like that especially when I found out that A is going after B that I love the most.
Few weeks later, I’ve also found out that B begin to have feelings to A, I was so hurt that time when I knew this after all. I can’t believe such a boy would change his feelings so fast after hurting my mui mui and going after B the one I love. I’ve told myself not to trust rumors and patient waiting for truth until today my mui mui told me that B thinks that A was a perfect guy for her. My heart was badly wound like a sniper shot precisely to my heart. Tears flowing out my eyes and soon leaving the conversation between me, my mui mui and Eu Juin and running to my room. I know boys do not cry but this time I’m really seriously hurt crying lonely in my room wondering whether I’m the dumbest person on earth.
I’ve been locking myself in the room for some time wondering is it worth it to sacrifices so much for love and whether true love do really exist in this world. Last time I do fell in love with someone and I step down after finding out 2 of my best friend are going after her. Will I do the same this time??? Or I will just leave it??? Why is this happening when my birthday is approaching??? Is the god punishing me??? Or the god is just playing a fool to me??? Right now, I’m SO lost, SO clueless, SO helpless and SO sad and angry… I’m being useless now, am I???
To my mui mui, I know that you want A to change so badly but can you imagine that Eu Juin was his closest friend ever and couldn’t even change him… how would I? A is just like how you encounter B, both of them are stubborn and would not even consider our advise, is just like they totally shut the door off and not letting anyone go in. Anyway, I promise I will find a way and I will do it, just give me some time. If A is reading this blog, please look at how my mui mui is treating you… you’ve been hurting her and still she is trying to help you, I can’t believe that you don’t even appreciate her and going after the girl I like.
To Eu Juin, I’m so sorry I left the conversation out of sudden, but I can tell you that I really can’t stand it jor… I can’t even control my tears flowing out my eyes… sigh =S Anyway I really hope that you and Joanne could have some answer soon. Heh… after reading this blog I bet you will feel I’m so useless right… well I also feel that way and couldn’t find anything to help myself. Guess I’m really useless and helpless after all…
July 10th, 2006 at 10:09 pm
dude.. just remember one thing.. when it comes to love, theres always one rule that says it all.. BMW - Best Man Wins.. so dont be silly n go give up some1 u love because of friendship.. every1 has a fair chance when it comes to a competition, even in love.. if ur frens understands u (and if they are really you’re frens), then im sure that they will respect u when u go for the person they love.. its a fair competition, n u arent backstabbing any1.. love is something that is fated, so dont step back coz its NOT wrong to go for some1 ur fren likes.. dont give up n gambate man.. all the best..
July 10th, 2006 at 11:39 pm
eyo gonng gong ^^ !!
hhey,1st all ,ther r many hardships inn life tht every1 has to face…dun luk at tis prob as an incidennt thht is ruinninn ur life…try 2 think positively n luk at tis prob as suumthin tht u cud learn frm it …no , God aint punishinn u ~~!! he nvr doess..sumtimes these probss remind us 2 b strong inn d heart nn nnvr break down or give up eazily..life stil has 2 go on !!life iss a journey wher ther r ups n downs …remeember , dun giv up !!! n btw,i din say tht B liked A le….i tink u kinndaa mistaken wat i;ve sed..jus thht B thhinks tht A is a veru gud nn capable person…fuurthermore,uu’re nnot uuseless !! juus bcos u;re unable to win a personn’s heart meanns u r ..n i guess sumtimes 2 allow a person 2 realise their mistakes is 2 let them figuure it out themselves since d advice u hhad given doesn seem 2 work ….but dunn give upp o ,oke oke =) ??? ermmms,aish,ur sadness has effected me de la =( …wondered yy u were givin me ur cryin face in skul…now only realised…hehe ….nneways,live life 2 d fullest !! dun let all these probs effect u in anyy way..conntinue 2 live life happily nn chherishh wat uu hv now nn u;ll feel much better,truust me =) …life isnt all abt findin love !! ther;ss stil a long time 2 go 4 thht…bsides thher r other forms of love suchh as parental love ,GOd’s love 2 u,siblinngs , fwenns ,ur bunnie =P …n d list goes onn !! so appreciate it 4 now ^.^ welllll,guess i’ll end here….cheer up,kays ^.^ !!! b strong ! i’ll be hhere 4 yea if u hv nne probs!!! wuiyo =D !! keke …byyes
July 11th, 2006 at 7:45 am
eyo tai gong =D , cheer up kayz.. well, its not like shes d oni gal in dis world. I aint that close with her, so im kinda cold towards her. evenmore, i dun hav a good impression of her, so birds of a feather flock together. Rubbish ppl get along with rubbish ppl. thats why u werent meant for each other. since she wants glamour n fame, let her be then, since she thinks tat having a KP as her bf is sumthing coolz.. but she’ll out grow him pretty soon, as he’s juz a baby-T. Amature, undevotive, unseductive, inevoctive, solatirative, undicisive, and bla bla…. So juz cheer up.. enjoy ur bday, n b glad that your matured enough to overcome and face these problems.. lots more are yet to come, and this is juz our stepping stones into our baby pool
Be strong and stay strong.. No one can make the world any better, but ourselves!